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Thursday, May 30, 2013

Submissive Self Acceptance, or, How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bondage.

OH YES, It was a fun party!
I am lucky. I tend to get to be surrounded by people who have learned to accept BDSM, their draw to it, and its place in their life and who they are. I do however spend time with people who are exploring self acceptance.  I myself am on a constant journey to completely accept and enjoy My own needs and desires.
I was at a play party recently, and a lovely lady said, "Who wants to spank me now!"  It is so silly that I had about 5% hesitation before raising My hand.  I wanted to spank her, (WHOO HOOOOO!) and she wanted to be spanked. (WHOO HOOO!) While I was spanking her, people were watching.  I was thoroughly enjoying Myself, and felt at one point a twinge of shyness, embarrassment, the feeling of "I'm a weirdo for paddling this lovely naked bottom and really enjoying the swats and her reactions."
I was talking about My very religious upbringing later, and someone said, "But if you have the guilt that can be a fun thing to play with."  So that is an interesting way to think of this.  I definitely have less guilt and hesitation than most people, but it is still a journey for Me just as it is anyone else.
When I've spent time with male submissives who are learning how to let go and love the bondage, I would say these are some of the big blocks I've seen:  (Keep in mind, as above, sometimes the things holding you back can be the fun things to play with as well.)

  • Masculinity- "I'm less of a man for wanting this."  Really?  It takes a ton of courage to submit to someone else and god knows what!  Especially if it's a beautiful woman! We are terrifying!
  • Gross!- Guess what?  Almost every aspect of sexual stuff is gross.  Fluids come out of My vagina when I'm aroused. Get over it.
  • Body Issues- We all have them. No one is perfect. One of the fun things about BDSM- blindfolds. Latex. Corsets.  We have built in ways to feel more sexy in our bodies.
  • Self Consciousness about what you enjoy- We may have been taught things are weird or wrong.  I fail to see how anything enjoyed completely consensually and freely by two adults (or several, tee-hee) should be wrong.  It may be weird-  isn't that wonderful?  What a DIVERSE and constantly surprising world we live in!
  • Judgment of the world- This is why it is so important to allow ourselves some people in our lives who accept us, our full sexual selves, and their own sexual selves.  Sometimes (and especially in the Cincinnati climate) in secret.
Part of My own personal self growth has been about accepting My sadistic side, accepting My enjoyment of the sexual objectification of the male (consensually!), accepting My somewhat hyperactive sex drive and predatory nature, and integrating these into My life in a healthy way.  I feel strongly that denying them manifests negatively in My life, at the very least with depression.  We are glad to live in the internet age, where we can look up other people who get aroused by smashing cupcakes with their feet!
I'll end this with an excerpt from another blog I've enjoyed, and a link to it for those who want to read more! Have a great weekend!

Friday, May 24, 2013

Letters of Admiration

Dear Mistress DeSade,
 my visit with you was certainly memorable. Not only that but a thing of beauty, you were so animated and alive during the whole adventure that even though I was blindfolded for most of the time it was an experience that is unlikely to fade from my mind ever. Your dress in those lovely stockings and black floral lace blouse that exposed so much of your ample breasts to my sight, at least briefly, your wearing of those incredible black pumps, studded with stainless spikes, your wonderful flowing locks done up in a long very pretty ponytail, but most of all that unbelievable black leather corset, which illuminates your Divine person in ways beyond my meek ability to describe.
  i was or course pleased that you liked at least some of the gifts that i brought you and enjoyed the privilege of being able to present them to you naked and knelling at your feet, where I belong. You were so very tactful and gracious to this humble slave, even though i had made mistakes, you forgave, at least until you had be naked bound where you could more effectively illustrate the cost of failure.
  my favorite part of your play time was near the end when you had my balls in the Humbler and proceeded to smack them with your lovely hand most effective, but the best was your wicked play of having me go through the 4 positions you taught me after enduring a long session of fire play and electro torture to me nipples, ass, cock and balls, my mind was quite out of it at that point and when i failed to remember position 3 you found a wicked way to bring it back to my mine and make sure I did not forget again when you had me in the position and wearing the humbler to which you had attached a leash you told me to worship your lovely small and delicate feet. As i moved forward to kiss them i found the leash had been attached to something immovable behind me and i could not get more than a foot from your feet, this obviously disappointed and pleased you and you proceeded to fine wicked and very pleasantly painful ways to encourage me to reach those lovely feet, electro, ball beating and fire, i nearly made it, but alas it was not to be without ripping my balls completely off.
  my nipples and balls are still today quite sore and i can still see all the staple holes you put in my cock and scrotum. You were quite right when you told me during a previous session that needles and staples were not nearly as painful as some of your electro play.
  The electrically stimulated sound you inserted the length of my urethra was a sensation undreamed of, pleasurable pain and I am sure you noticed me humping the sound as you held it in my cock and that was likely the reason you decided to really lay on the electro torture to my cock head and ball at the same time bring a true scream from my mouth for the first time and delicious delightful laughter from your divine self.
  i would love to have you try larger sounds on my urethra, but am wondering if it can be stretched to except the largest and if so will it remain that large or will it return to normal?
  While the sadistically high electro torture to my cock and balls was the most painful part of our session i do not want to belittle the truly horrible pain and sheer terror of your very skillful flame torture. The heat was so intense at times that i though for sure i would be blistered from it and while i have very little body hair on my torso, after that i now have none at all.
  As always the most pleasure I got from our session together was to hear Your giggles and even more Your outright laughter at my predicament, Your lovely form and face as always gives great pleasure, 
Your humbly and satisfied slave

Monday, May 20, 2013

Fetish Wear

Fetish wear IS fetish wear because it FEELS delicious.  Some women have dreamed of wearing these luxurious stockings, tight-fitting boots, buttery soft leather shaping natural curves into something spectacular for a lifetime.  For OUR very own enjoyment.

And when Mama's happy... everybody's happy!
I have received some lovely luxurious gifts this week, and enjoyed them thoroughly.
I hope you all have a lovely week as well.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Are you decent at building things?

I have a very demented idea I have drawn out and would like built.  It will not require anything beyond cursory skills:  simple power tools- drill, powersaw of some kind, ability to measure, level, and screw.  There are not any complex angles to the design and it could be built within a weekend, possibly one day. The equipment to the left is not an example, however, My outfit has a bit to do with it!

ONLY if you have met Me in the past will you be considered to build this for Me.  

Please email if you feel you would like to help.  I will expect you to have time for it this week or weekend as I am antsy and want it ASAP!

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

A Little Latex Lasciviousness

Latex is a multi-sensory material for me, and why I think it has such a sexual connection.

The smell is the first signal.
Simply opening up the wardrobe or bag to be assailed by its beguiling aroma is enough to get Me aroused.

I'm cleaning some latex right now in the bathroom in preparation for fun at the weekend...and its quite intoxicating- I am blissing out big time!!

The visual and touch of latex is equally stimulating.

There is also the aural quality it has, that rubber creak when you move in skintight rubber as well as the schtick sound when flesh rubs on a thigh...

Simply put, it is the material that keeps on giving...

Monday, May 6, 2013

Birds of Prey

 "It is not surprising that the lambs should bear a grudge 
against the great birds of prey, 
but that is no reason for blaming the great birds of prey 
for taking the little lambs. 
And when the lambs say among themselves, 
"These birds of prey are evil, and he who least resembles a bird of prey, who is rather its opposite, a lamb,—should he not be good?" 
then there is nothing to carp with in this ideal's establishment, 
though the birds of prey may regard it a little mockingly, 
and maybe say to themselves, 
"We bear no grudge against them, these good lambs, we even love them: 
nothing is tastier than a tender lamb."

-Friedrich Nietzsche, On the Genealogy of Morality

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Travels, Availability

I will be away this weekend to attend Kinko De Mayo in Cleveland.

This event is held in a wonderfully well equipped dungeon and there are going to be tons of great classes and great vendors selling their torturous devices! I can't wait!

I will, therefore be unavailable to any of you here in Cincinnati who would wish to see Me this weekend, however I will return Monday to get back to your training, and hopefully with a few new terrible toys in hand!